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My own words sent shivers down my spine. It was like a gut punch by the reality of it.
When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)? On the shallow end this question would either be really hard or really easy to answer. It would be hard because you could choose from many blatantly obvious choices like when you had a baby, got a job, got keys to…
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Healthy Love After Toxicity
Loving again after you’ve been put through toxicity is so hard. You have to unlearn the survival mode you put yourself into and become someone you don’t know how to be. This is especially hard if you didn’t have an example of healthy love in the home you grew up in either. I am that…
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Emmarie’s Perseverance Series
Emmarie arrived at the grocery store. And saw a box of puppies near the entrance. They were with a man who appeared homeless. He was sitting in a fold up chair that you see at parties and events, holding a sign that says “Puppies ,FREE, $50 rehoming fee”. She stopped on her way in to…
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Emmarie’s Perseverance Series
“Ok so it all started when my Dad passed when I was 4. He was murdered in a robbery gone bad. I don’t remember it. But I blame it for what happened next, because if he never left then my Mom would’ve never remarried and he would’ve never hurt me. He, being, my late step…
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If we’re being completely honest here…
If you had a million dollars to give away, who would you give it to? My husband, because we really could use a break… we live in a decent camper with 3 kiddos (one who is severely disabled) and it needs some repairs. That would take care of those repairs or just replace it for…
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Emmarie’s Perseverance Series
“Well hello Mrs. Emmarie. How are we today?”, said the therapist. ” We’re, I mean, I’m good. You?”, Emmarie said nervously. “Doing Fine. Thanks for asking. So, anything you want to talk about today in particular?” “,Yes. Actually. I want to talk about what we can talk about. Like, what are the boundaries? Is there…
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Emmarie’s Perseverance Series
Emmarie thought a lot about her next therapy session. What should she say? How far into her past should she go? She bought a journal and took notes of these thoughts and questions. She wanted to talk them out with Mrs. Smith and get an idea of what was appropriate because she has never done…
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Self Harm Continued…
When I self harmed, I used cutting and burning. While I know those are both common ways to do it, I often wonder if I chose those because of my past with sadistic sexual molestation. He used many forms of torture and humiliation tactics (as I speak about in more detail in another blog post)…
Cede Dawn Chronicles 